No Steamy Dreams

No steamy dreams to refer to in this post, at least nothing new worth mentioning because aside from the one I mentioned the other day I don't think there have been any new ones since.

I keep looking around this joint, wondering what I can do to make it look nicer and less dated. Maybe it is just me, but it feels a bit rundown and worn out, probably because compared to my self hosted joint it is a bit...tired.

A Steamy Dream

Had one hell of a dream, the sort of steamy dream that wakes you up sweaty and disoriented because for a moment you aren't sure where you are.

It felt like a cross between real life and fantasy, 'cuz my companion was someone who has enjoyed those experiences with me before. It was like we just picked up where we left off and decided to reach for that next level.

Not surprising that we hit it in the dream because we did a few times in reality and could have done it again.

Don't know if I am the only person that dreams in technicolor, but when I do it is always extra vivid.

They say every monkey needs their banana and I can confirm it.

Could be more descriptive but some things are best left to imagination.

And now I am going to leave you with this link 'cuz I am shifting gears.


Denial is not a river in Egypt, but the behavior of some people makes me wonder if they are aware of that subtlety.

Maybe yes, maybe no.

Can't live based upon what others do or do not, have to do what we must to feed our souls and follow our hearts or risk the consequences of doing otherwise.

Follow The Dream

That is my mantra, follow the dream. Some people let go and let their dreams die because it is too hard and some go the distance.

If you go the distance win or lose you can sleep well knowing you tried.

Desperately In Search/Need Of Sleep

I am not quite sure how I am still standing, got to get some shut eye soon. Not sure if any of this makes sense, but I am going with it.

Got a story in my head that is tied into  It Burns  and  All I Want Is You or I Had A Dream and a few other pieces.

Not yet sure what the relationship is or if it is just tangentially tied in but am throwing this down on paper so that when I am awake I can revisit.

Damn, this not sleeping thing doesn't like clarity now does it.

Dumb Facebook Memes

This election cycle has me tuning and or muting more and more people because they haven't figured out it is worth doing some basic fact checking and or thinking about the political memes that are posted.

So much of the junk is emotion based rhetoric based on what they feel or think the world should be like and not upon fact.

It is not limited to one party either because I see it happening on both sides.

Although I tend to get more irritated with the claptrap that comes from the Occupy Democrats side because so often it occupies lollipop land. That probably indicates the political affiliation of a large part of my feed.

But like I said, my ire isn't limited to one side of the aisle. Some of my conservative friends and family post similar stupidity that makes me wonder when they replaced their brain with grapefruits.

And let's not forget the conspiracy theorists and wingnuts that occupy both parties, the far left/right and the neutral zone. They aren't helping anyone either.

Especially the knuckleheads who complain about what is going on but don't bother to vote, if you can't do that you forfeit your right to complain.

Stranded On A Desert Island

Ever think about what would happen if you were stranded on a desert island?

Every now and then I have answered the question of what books/music I would want to bring with me, but we never see people answer the question of who would you want to be stranded with.

Let's adjust the question and say your answer should be based upon who wouldn't make you crazy and not upon who might add the most value to your stay.

So it is not about having a doctor, fisherman or hunter or any other skill set,

It is just about who can you spend large amounts of time with and be confident they won't make you crazy because some people will do that.

We all have friends or family we take in small doses because the large just don't work for us.

I have my answer, but in the interest of harmony I'll keep it to myself.

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Meatloaf Would Do Anything For Love

Meatloaf would do anything for love, but he won't do that.

I would do anything for love too and I might even do that, but I won't do...

Another Placeholder

This post is another placeholder. I came across this again and it triggered a thought but there is no time to follow up now, so that is why this is here.

A reminder to read, review and revisit later on because when you read something and a ping goes off inside your head you better make a note of it.

“I am not a teacher, but an awakener.” ― Robert Frost

The words stop me in my tracks. I don’t know if I heard them, read them or if they were painted upon the blackboard of my mind but they are stunning.

He is awake and I am awake which I suppose means we are awake because I am him and he is me.

“How many things have to happen to you before something occurs to you?” ― Robert Frost

You better believe I'll follow up on this and that it won't be ignored because I learned long ago these pings are worth noticing.

Daniel And Anne- American names

Listened to some jackass go on today about how he only wanted to hear American names and thought about what a poor sheltered life he must lead.

If the only names you want to hear are American I am curious as to why and whether you know where your name came from or if the American name you think is natural and normal is what you think it is.

Because what is familiar and recognizable to you just might be a name that isn't as American as you think it is. Dumb knucklehead probably thinks biblical names are American and would be shocked if he heard the correct pronunciation.

Talk about someone you wish didn't represent you, what an embarrassment.

And in other news I wrote these posts somewhere else:

Daily Posting and Time Management

Somewhere along the way daily posting seems to have become more of a problem. Don't know if it is because I am better or worse at time management.

Hell maybe I just don't care to do it as much as I used to, hard to say. Too much going on to know for certain.

Hoping to block out some time to do some real writing on TheJackB later today.

Need to clear my head and writing does a wonderful job of that.

Where Does The Road Lead

"And once you accept that you survived the moments that you thought would stop you in your tracks and understand how to read the map upon the scars, well then you are on your way, aren’t you." She Saved My Heart
There is a thread of a much larger story that I am working on here, took this excerpt and decided to start fleshing it out.

It is all in my head, now I have to figure out where it goes and how it happens. Where does the road lead?

Well we are going to find out.

Risks and Risk Taking

A person who lives in fear probably fears to live meaning they avoid things that look like risk. But there are RISKS and there are risks and those who fail to discern the difference live in shadows.

That is not the life I have led or one that I choose to take on. I intend to take on the hard stuff and go for what I want.

It is the only way to truly get what you want from life.

How Many Times Have You Been Married

When they asked me I told them I didn't remember but thought it was somewhere between 1 and 7. They sort of scrunched up their face and I told them I wasn't sure if I had ever officially married or divorced number two.

They asked if I had convinced number two to marry me by making her feel like number one and I said no, just a steady supply of bananas had been enough.

That led to being called a bit of a jerk and me responding with, a bit of a storyteller too. :)

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The Knife

Stabbed in the back, somewhere between the shoulder blades, close to that center place where I couldn't quite reach.

Wasn't a mortal wound, wasn't the kind of thing that would kill me immediately, but it was enough to hurt like hell. Can't say whether the rage that came with the blade was because of the physical or the mental pain.

Probably doesn't matter. I just know what it did, how it felt and what it made me want to do.

The Coolest Thing That Came From Blogging

The coolest thing I ever got to do because of blogging might be the time I got to drive a Ferrari 458 Italia.

But then again, if I think long and hard about it there might be some other things that rank a few notches above that.

Might have to blog about it all and see about sorting it out. Still, it was one hell of a cool thing and something that I won't ever forget. Might have to do it again, there is something primal attached to driving a beast like that.

Time To Change

Sometimes when it is time to change the thing you need most is time to make the change.

A Waste Of Energy

It is a waste of energy to get pissed off about things and people that are in the past but every now and then I succumb to that particular bogeyman.

Saw some people who were involved in my daughter's life and thought about walking up to them and slapping them. They deserve it and it would feel good but I don't really need to get arrested and they'll never understand why.

Awful people who shouldn't work with kids...ever.

I suppose that what bothers me the most is that I feel like I probably should have pulled my kid from their program long before I did. That was my mistake.

She doesn't think about it anymore and no long-term damage was done, but it irks me.

Sometimes I wonder if I am going to turn in a kindly old man, someone who is more tolerant and more patient and then stupid crap comes up in my life and I want to slap the people who bring it and I think it might be a while before I can be that guy because based upon appearances it is not happening any time soon.

The world is great, it is people who are...less so.

Golda Knew What She Wanted

Golda Meir would have been quite interesting to have met and spoken with. I have read her biography and spoken with people who knew her, but there is a difference between reading, hearing and knowing.

Just read this piece here and thought about how remarkable she was. Some of you will read these words and think of her in less than favorable terms, but consider who she was, when she lived and what she did.

Addicted to political activity

Even though Golda renounced family life to a great extent, she never renounced romance or intimacy. She was surrounded by admirers. According to Goldstein, the most prominent of them was Zalman Shazar, who had an intimate relationship with her for many years even though he was married to Rachel Katznelson, one of the leaders of the Yishuv, and according to rumor also had a stormy love affair with the poet Rachel (Bluwstein).

Golda had affairs with Shazar and David Remez at the same time.

Sometimes she would prefer Shazar, and at other times she would prefer Remez.

She had many other romantic relationships as well. In the Jewish Yishuv, rumors spread about affairs with Zalman Aran, who later became the secretary of Mapai, and later a member of Knesset and a government minister.

Another romantic partner was Yaakov Hazan, the leader of Hashomer Hatzair. But she gave her admirers only a little of her time.

Her days, nights, weekends and holidays were devoted to serving the party and the Histadrut, its institutions and its needs. “She was addicted,” Goldstein writes in his book, “obsessed with the political activity that filled her entire being.”

Later, Golda had an affair with Henry Montor, a good-looking and impressive Canadian, who was the vice president of the United Jewish Appeal and seven years her junior. According to the gossip at the time, she also had a relationship of sorts with Berl Katznelson. At the time, there were also rumors that she might have been involved with Ben-Gurion as well.

Ring A Ding Ding

If you could read my mind you might wonder why it is so damn empty inside and I'd tell you it is because you are in the anteroom and it is intentionally stark and sterile because only a few are allowed entrance into the backroom.

Really, I don't have a need for validation from most or even some. It is just not how things work for me now,  maybe once upon a time things were different but those days are in the past.

And now here today in the present I straddle two worlds and work towards moving to just one. That is because the short term plan requires both but the long term one, well that requires just one.

One place, one moment in time, one life.

Sounds kind of goofy, but it makes sense to me and that is really all that is necessary. Just setting the table for the next stage, just preparing a foundation so that one day I can retire and live the 87nd version of my life.

“Babe, baby, baby, I wanna leave you
I ain’t jokin’ woman – I’ve got to ramble
Oh, yeah, baby, baby, I will be there
I’ve really got to ramble
I can hear it callin’ me the way it used to do
I can hear it callin’ me back home”

My thoughts are back in Israel and I am remembering how it all started in Ojai.

I couldn't see then what I see now nor did I have any clue what life would be like now but that is ok. I have lived a life, lived more than a few adventures and with a bit of luck will live many more.

That is how it goes, even if you were once the six million dollar man.

Not A Good Choice

Wednesday night at the break fast I walked over to the buffet to grab some of the traditional bagels, lox and cream cheese and was disappointed to discover that whomever had brought the bagels had brought the most awful selection I have seen in a long time.

And that is saying something, when you have fasted all day long and are quite hungry you are normally prepared to eat almost anything except these bagels.

They were simply awful and I was disappointed but there was a big selection so I moved onto other things and was grateful that I had choices.

Not everyone does.

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I need More Time

Damn, been too freaking busy to write the way I need to and want to. Need more time in the day or fewer blogs. Maybe both.

You're Responsible

One of my cousins posted this article on Facebook today. I was tempted to respond but I didn't because any time I reply to her political posts I end up going at it with some of her friends and I feel badly when I make them scream.

And believe me, I make them scream.

That is because I tear things apart piece by piece and start asking for fact over opinion and substance over blather.

But it is the New Year and I don't want to start it off by fighting so I am going to share a couple of thoughts here.

Let's start with the headline and why it irritates me:

Republicans Enraged As Obama On Track To Completely Eliminate Deficit By 2017/b>

I am not a fan of finger pointing and name calling.

If we are on the same side and all supposed to be working towards the common good how does this kind of mud slinging help?

Does anyone believe that there is uniformity among all party members in either the Democrat or Republican party?

I certainly don't and I don't see  the advantage or benefit in a false claim.

Now let's look at the lead:

One of the most hurtful lies that Republicans hurl at President Obama is the false claim that he is responsible for the ballooning of our nation’s national debt. It is especially grating to know that couldn’t be further from the truth, since President Obama was forced to inherit George W. Bush’s colossal deficit

The writer used an awful lot of words to say very little.  They could have just said they believe President Obama isn't responsible for the debt because he took over for President Bush.

We're more than halfway into President Obama's second term so I want to know at what point he becomes accountable for what is going on. Every president inherits something(s) from his predecessor.

Party Lines

FWIW I am technically a registered Democrat who voted for Obama twice.

But in practice I am an Independent and have been for years because I grew tired of the bullshit coming from both parties.

I believe in solutions and in working together to achieve them and to my great dismay I see very little of this.

I despise listening to friends/family/supporters of either party prattle on about how awful the other side is because that does nothing to help anyone.

When my kids fight I tell them to figure it out and work it out. If I had the power I'd fire the reps and senators who can't do that.

There is no reason why we should ever face government shutdown or gridlock. It is unacceptable to me.

In the real world if you told your boss you wouldn't work because you didn't like someone they'd smack you around and you'd figure it out or be out of work.

The bottom line to me is at some point we all have to look in the mirror and say "you're responsible" and then make a concerted effort to fix whatever is broken and improve whatever crap we can improve.

If you are not part of the solution you are part of the problem.

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It looks like I have a shot at participating in an experience that I have always wanted to do but never tried because I never had enough spare cash to make it happen.

I am really excited about the opportunity and hope it comes through because if it does I'll be able to cross something off of the list of things that I want to do in my life,

Makes me think I need to spend some time mulling over what the top 100 are so that I can do more than just dream about it.

Kim Davis and Marriage

Every time I read something that is supposed to support Kim Davis and her refusal to issue marriage licenses to same sex couples I shake my head.

That is because 100% of these messages have been based upon things that have no relevance and no place in the discussion. Many of them clearly slept through their civics courses in school and demonstrate they have no understanding about laws, the Constitution and how it all works.

I also find it difficult to stomach their assertions that Christians are being persecuted in the US. It is factually incorrect and almost always based upon a misunderstanding of how things work.

The worst part of all of this is how freaking dumb some of these calls for support are. Not dumb because I disagree but lacking substance, fact and riddled with grammar/spelling errors.

Not Quite Abandoned

I didn't think it had been as many months away from here as it has clearly been. I was certain I had updated this place in December and ...