From The Archive

Wrestling with code- that is what I have been doing for about 5 minutes now. That is because I screwed something up, but I don't have time to stick around here.

Unfortunately there are other things that are more important than making this look exactly as I want and wish it to.

With some luck that won't prevent you from taking time to read through. There are some older posts here that were fun to look at. Some of the comments made me snort, reminded me of promises made and promises broken.

Life is nothing but interesting.

• Another Meme- 7 Things
  
  

  Is Sex Necessary? Can you Have Too Much? 

  What If I Had Died- Reflections On The Accident

  Favorite Posts

  A Little Digestive Distress- Chicken Vindaloo

  I Won't Back Down

  You Used To Let Me See You   

  Sometimes Daddies Get Scared Too

  Too Much Information- The Girl in the Men's Room

  My Son & The Strip Club

  Rules For Life

  Dear Santa Take a Memo

  The Auto Flush

Going After What I Want

This isn't a real post. It is a short break from the work that I do to pay the bills. This is just me clearing my head so I can finish something else.

And that leads me to somewhere else, a thought about finishing something else. It is what I am doing now. I am finishing something else that will lead to the next place.

Transition. I am in transition and I am excited and nervous, but in a good way. The train has left the station and the engine is chugging down the line, there is no turning back and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Read this once or read it twice- the end result is the same thing. I am going after what I want.

Call This An Attempt To Build Links

Yep, you can classify this as my attempt to help build more backlinks to my other blog.

That is not to say there will not be any more original content here, because there has been and will continue to be.  This place is not abandoned, but it is purpose has been adjusted and we're working off of that.

You should expect to find some more fiction, some posts about parenting and some random thoughts here. In the interim I want to encourage you to check out the headlines below.

• How I Became A Serial Killer- Or The Headline You Hate
• An Easy Fast Doesn’t Provide Atonement
• You Are The Biggest Liar In Social Media
• Words That Are Never Read
• What Is The Best Way To Get Attention
• Rhythm and Flow

Simple Words

Sometimes the hardest things to write or say are the simplest. It is not for lack of desire that it doesn't happen but fear.

Fear of rejection. Fear of being hurt. Fear of a thousand different things. There are things I could say. Things I might say. Things I want to say.

But at the moment I won't.

Blame it on fear or attribute to other things. The time is not right or maybe it is.

Things To Read

• Introspection
• New Year’s Resolutions, Deodorant & Car Repairs
• Stream of Consciousness Sunday- The %#$@^$@@ Car
• Indiana Jones Meets Han Solo Meets The iPhone
• Five Things I Know About Writing
• Silver Bracelets
• Jericho 
• Instant Messenger 
• Johnny Was A Hero

Judy's Ghost

When we said we were going to do it we were only kidding. It was supposed to be the kind of joke that couples make.

It wouldn't be funny to anyone else but us and it was. Whenever we talked about doing it we would laugh hard and share that special smile that we saved for each other..

We were going to visit Judy and have sex on her porch or maybe inside her apartment. Can't remember who came up with the idea and why, but we did. And like I said I can't tell you why it was funny nor does it really matter.

It was just something we said we were going to do but it became more than that. It was sort of a catchphrase for doing something ridiculous and silly.

When Judy got sick I told Anne that we ought to think twice about whether doing it would be a way to honor Judy or if it would be disrespectful.

We both knew that wasn't really what we were talking about, but it was just how we dealt with something hard and difficult to talk about.

"It is not like Judy's ghost is going to come haunt or walk in on us."

I laughed and told her that I loved her so much that if I died before she did I would come back to visit her.

"Daniel, that is not funny. I don't know what I would do if you died."

I took her hand and kissed her cheek.

"Anne, you will go live your life and be happy. You will find someone new and move on. Sometimes you will think about me and wonder what could have been, but if you are smart you won't spend your days looking back."

She started to respond and I kissed her so she would stop worrying about it. I don't think that I made her forget, but I distracted her.

Later that night I watched as she slept and promised her that as long as I lived I would do what I could to make her happy and protect her from whatever came, including Judy's ghost.

And then came the day that

Moving Forward

Some of you only read this blog and or rarely visit any of my other blogs. Sometimes I wonder why that is and what you find here that you don't see there.

It has to be apparent that this place doesn't hold the same attention for me as it once did and that I have made an effort to move forward.

But that doesn't negate the place this blog holds in my heart and the sheer love I hold for what it has given me.

Nor does it preclude a relationship because that suggests there is no room to move from the past into the present and that is something I simply do not believe.

There is opportunity and all that is required is the willingness to take a leap of faith.

I have relatively few regrets in life and those I do have generally stem from my having been slow or unwilling to take those leaps of faith.

That is not how I live any more and thus I find myself enjoying new opportunities and experiences. Moving forward doesn't have to mean we forget who we were or who we are. It just means we understand sometimes you have to take a chance to get the bigger rewards in life.