Not Dead Yet

Been a whole slew of crazy things that have happened since I last updated this joint. 

It is not an exaggeration to say I am not dead yet, cuz things could have gone the other way. 

I imagine that might have upset a few people who haven't spoken with me in quite some times as I am sure they imagine that one day they might again.

Came pretty close to going the other way, but I am pleased to say things worked out. Of course if they hadn't you wouldn't be reading this and most of you would never know I had checked out.

I am glad I didn't as I have plans for the future.

One More Year

 And here we go, rolling into a new year one more time.

Hard to believe, yet impossible not to see.

Fall Has Arrived

In the last post so many months ago I linked to this post with the intent to do something with the prompt I shared below.

Eyes close, lips brush…time stops. Eyes open…empty room…Empty heart. Hope that echoes of the past become reality of the future. #loveburns

There is a true story connected to that one that may never be shared or it might be. That is not me playing coy, it is honesty.

I haven't decided if I want to blog about it here or the other places I write. It goes back decades and I am not sure it deserves more attention.

Nor am I sure it does not but we shall see.

Still Good

 I need to revisit this.

Language and History

 

Still Driving Traffic

Still one of the most popular posts on the blog. 

Still Here

 I am still here even if I publish at a snail's pace. I am still here even if these posts aren't quite as random as they once were.

The players that used to accompany me, well that is a different story. I don't know where many of them are and how they spend their time.

I do wish them well.

Pallywood Posts

 I think a bunch of the posts about Pallywood that have been written and or linked here have to be updated.

Probably a bunch of bad links, kind of irritating but so it goes online.

Almost 20 years

Next week marks the 20th anniversary of the launch of this spot. Hard to believe, not many have kept going since then.

I have barely kept up all of the places I operate in, but I still keep going even if at a snail's pace.

Not Quite Abandoned

I didn't think it had been as many months away from here as it has clearly been. I was certain I had updated this place in December and then again in January but clearly, I was wrong.

So I am back in the original house dusting off the shelves and considering what this ought to be and where to take it.

That fits with some of the other posts I have written here but I suppose some things haven't changed.

Not sure that I am ready to part with this, it holds some triumph and some tragedy but there are more good memories than bad.

Blogging The Days Away

 Blogging the days away probably should be reworked because most of the time I write at night. But there are moments like now where I jump in for a quick post.

This is where I got started and though I don't spend as much time here as I once did it still holds sentimental value.

Sometimes I think about coming here and installing a new template and look to mix things up. But I don't know if that would serve any real purpose or not.

I suppose if it motivated me to update this place more frequently there might be value in that.

July 4, 2023

The fireworks have been going off for hours and the neighbors are having another party so it feels like business as usual here.

Got the usual infighting on Nextdoor about the meaning of the holiday and the related festivities.

Lots of questions where all this is leading and no answers, just ideas.

So for now we celebrate and watch.

20 Years Of Blogging

 Hard to believe, but I have been doing this thing for 20 years now. Wild to think, especially when I ask myself how much of this is quality work.

Probably more than I think but not nearly as much as I would like.

Why I Blog

 Been a minute since I last updated so I thought I would reference an older post about Why I Blog. 

 Here at the keyboard I commune with others and speak about my life. I offer my insecurities and my beliefs. I open my mind and try to learn about the world around me. I am always searching and seeking for new things to learn. I am an educational hedonist. 

 I have many refuges. There are places I seek during times of trouble and uncertainty. There are physical locations that feed and nurture my soul, places in Ojai and the Los Padres National Forest. There are areas around Malibu and beaches in Hawaii. 

 Around Jerusalem, in the Negev and near Joshua Tree. On top of Yosemite Falls and elsewhere. These are places that I seek because I find them to be relaxing. They help me find myself and reconnect.

This is all still basically true.

Writing is still where I figure out the important stuff and sometimes have conversations with others.

Calling out

 Earth to SQ, Earth to SQ.

How Long

 How Long will I be forced to wait...

Note To Self

 This is more of a placeholder, a note to myself to review the posts here and update if needed.

That Was Surprising

 Got news last week that surprised me. Been wondering about it all for days now 'cuz I don't have the details and specifics.

You could say I don't need them and then again maybe I do.

In My Dreams

 She showed up in my dream again and I woke up wondering where she was. We had part of the discussion there that I hope to have here...awake.

You might argue that it matched my thoughts and hope so closely that it would have to be a dream. Might be truth in that but then again we didn't expect to find each other and we did.

Came from different places and somehow ended up in the same one. No telling if that matters or not today, but I would be disappointed if we were farther apart.

I have thoughts and questions that need to be addressed.

Not Quite Where It Began

It is not quite where it began but this place is a big part of the pieces of the puzzle that make up that particular part of life. The one I never expected or believed would come about that turned into something more.

One I wanted to dig into and find out more about to see if what I suspected was something based in fantasy or reality.

And a million years and a dozen life times later I still wonder and I still suspect my gut feeling is correct.