September 20, 2005

A Story of Two Souls Searching to Merge

I began writing this on a whim this past August. If you haven't read the first part I recommend that you click here and then click here and you can rejoin us afterwards. FWIW, I am not real happy with the quality of this so it is entirely possible that I will junk it or rework it several times.
Baby, Now That I've Found You By Gary Jules

refrain:
"Baby, now that I've found you
I can't let you go
I'll build my world around you
I need you so
Baby, even though you don't need me
You don't need me.

refrain

Baby, baby, since first we met (doot-doot)
I knew in this heart of mine (I wanna tell you, doot-doot)
The love we had could not be bad (doot-doot)
Play it right and bide my time

Spent a lifetime looking for somebody
To give me love like you
Now you've told me that you wanna leave me
Darling, I just can't let you.

refrain
refrain

Spent a lifetime looking for somebody
To give me love like you
Now you've told me that you wanna leave me
Darling, I just can't let you."

She was a grown woman but falling for Daniel had been like falling in love for the first time again. Anne played the song over and over again. Her heart ached, there was no other way to put it. It was a physical pain, she missed Daniel so much that she couldn't breathe. Everywhere she went she looked for him, listened for his voice but he was never there.

At night she lay in bed fantasizing about him, wondering what building a life with him would be like. It was all consuming and she was easily lost in her reverie. For hours she would lie there making plans for the future and then her husband would reach for her and the reality of her situation would come crashing down upon her head.

She tried to be present, she tried to be attentive and to tend to his needs and for a while that effort was enough to assuage her guilt but she soon began to find that it was becoming harder and harder to fool herself into believing the tales she told.

So she spoke to Daniel and she talked about ending things. They agreed that they should focus on their current spouses and that if they worked on the relationships that they were in they could salvage them. It made so much more sense and so they tried several times to end it

I say that they tried to end it because they never quite managed to do so. Each time that they agreed to walk away was among the most heartwrenching experiences that they could imagine.
Daniel said that walking away from Anne was like trying to hold his breath for eternity. Daniel was a tough guy who was used to just sucking it up because sometimes that is just what you do but this was the kind of pain that he couldn't escape. There was no running away to be done because he couldn't get away from himself and he couldn't get drunk enough to forget her let alone he was unwilling to take that out.

He had too many responsibilities and whatever the cost he would suffer it to protect his children.

Anne lost 10 pounds the first time that they tried to split up. Her husband was oblivious to her suffering and so when he complimented her on how she looked it was sincere but without any understanding as to why she had stopped eating.

Neither one of them could say who called who or how they ended up speaking again they just knew that they had and if you had seen them the day that they had resumed communicating you would have thought that they had just won the lottery.

The feeling of joy that emanated from the two of them was palpable. What they had learned was the reality that sometimes the heart wants what the heart wants and logic and reason play no part in this.

There are souls that are connected on such a deep and intimate level that once they meet they cannot bear to be separated nor can they reach their full potential without each other. There is a need that they fill in each other in a way that cannot be explained nor understood, just accepted.

5 comments:

bornfool said...

I'm glad you let us check back in on Daniel and Anne. Keep it coming. :)

Jack's Shack said...

Hi Lejnd,

I'll try. :)

Stacey said...

This was beautiful. And that song is one of my all-time favorites. Daniel and Anne are soulmates.

Lil Bit said...

That's just what I was gonna say, Stacey. Soul-mates.
Hope to hear more of them someday.

Jack's Shack said...

Time will tell if we hear any more.