October 08, 2015

Time To Change

Sometimes when it is time to change the thing you need most is time to make the change.

October 04, 2015

A Waste Of Energy

It is a waste of energy to get pissed off about things and people that are in the past but every now and then I succumb to that particular bogeyman.

Saw some people who were involved in my daughter's life and thought about walking up to them and slapping them. They deserve it and it would feel good but I don't really need to get arrested and they'll never understand why.

Awful people who shouldn't work with kids...ever.

I suppose that what bothers me the most is that I feel like I probably should have pulled my kid from their program long before I did. That was my mistake.

She doesn't think about it anymore and no long-term damage was done, but it irks me.

Sometimes I wonder if I am going to turn in a kindly old man, someone who is more tolerant and more patient and then stupid crap comes up in my life and I want to slap the people who bring it and I think it might be a while before I can be that guy because based upon appearances it is not happening any time soon.

The world is great, it is people who are...less so.

October 01, 2015

Golda Knew What She Wanted

Golda Meir would have been quite interesting to have met and spoken with. I have read her biography and spoken with people who knew her, but there is a difference between reading, hearing and knowing.

Just read this piece here and thought about how remarkable she was. Some of you will read these words and think of her in less than favorable terms, but consider who she was, when she lived and what she did.

Addicted to political activity

Even though Golda renounced family life to a great extent, she never renounced romance or intimacy. She was surrounded by admirers. According to Goldstein, the most prominent of them was Zalman Shazar, who had an intimate relationship with her for many years even though he was married to Rachel Katznelson, one of the leaders of the Yishuv, and according to rumor also had a stormy love affair with the poet Rachel (Bluwstein).

Golda had affairs with Shazar and David Remez at the same time.

Sometimes she would prefer Shazar, and at other times she would prefer Remez.

She had many other romantic relationships as well. In the Jewish Yishuv, rumors spread about affairs with Zalman Aran, who later became the secretary of Mapai, and later a member of Knesset and a government minister.

Another romantic partner was Yaakov Hazan, the leader of Hashomer Hatzair. But she gave her admirers only a little of her time.

Her days, nights, weekends and holidays were devoted to serving the party and the Histadrut, its institutions and its needs. “She was addicted,” Goldstein writes in his book, “obsessed with the political activity that filled her entire being.”

Later, Golda had an affair with Henry Montor, a good-looking and impressive Canadian, who was the vice president of the United Jewish Appeal and seven years her junior. According to the gossip at the time, she also had a relationship of sorts with Berl Katznelson. At the time, there were also rumors that she might have been involved with Ben-Gurion as well.

September 30, 2015

Ring A Ding Ding

If you could read my mind you might wonder why it is so damn empty inside and I'd tell you it is because you are in the anteroom and it is intentionally stark and sterile because only a few are allowed entrance into the backroom.

Really, I don't have a need for validation from most or even some. It is just not how things work for me now,  maybe once upon a time things were different but those days are in the past.

And now here today in the present I straddle two worlds and work towards moving to just one. That is because the short term plan requires both but the long term one, well that requires just one.

One place, one moment in time, one life.

Sounds kind of goofy, but it makes sense to me and that is really all that is necessary. Just setting the table for the next stage, just preparing a foundation so that one day I can retire and live the 87nd version of my life.

“Babe, baby, baby, I wanna leave you
I ain’t jokin’ woman – I’ve got to ramble
Oh, yeah, baby, baby, I will be there
I’ve really got to ramble
I can hear it callin’ me the way it used to do
I can hear it callin’ me back home”

My thoughts are back in Israel and I am remembering how it all started in Ojai.

I couldn't see then what I see now nor did I have any clue what life would be like now but that is ok. I have lived a life, lived more than a few adventures and with a bit of luck will live many more.

That is how it goes, even if you were once the six million dollar man.