April 23, 2015

Just Words

The confusion comes from a mind that doesn't understand why its body is acting as it does. Exhaustion rules both the day and the night and one wonders whether they are physically ill or of if the source is some sort of mental/emotional breakdown.

There are moments where I think I could just walk away and never look back.

I had thought the storm was over but maybe  I was wrong, maybe it has just begun and I am in the midst of it.

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April 21, 2015

Once Again Into The Breach We Go

Won't be long before we set sail again for parts unknown and places yet to be seen. Not by choice but by requirement.

Sometimes that is just what you do, what is required.

This time I swear will be as short as I can make it because I will find a way to bridge the gap. In the interim I'll do my best to smile as I do what I must even though it is clearly not the direction I wish to head in.

April 18, 2015

Be The Captain of Your Destiny


There is no better word than Metamorphosis to describe this moment in time. A period of excitement and some fear but an undying belief that I will figure it out.

In a perfect world the transition from one stage into another would be seamless and easy but that is not what is happening here and overall I am ok with it,

Maybe it is because I realized long ago that I was in the midst of making some significant changes in my life and I understood it would take a while to process and proceed.

Fear prevented me from doing some of it before but I let go of that anchor weight and accepted I couldn't control what happened, I could only manage it.

You might argue that managing it has slowed it down and that it would be easier to just rip off the bandage. I wouldn't fight you about whether it would help because in many ways it would but I am not convinced it would be good for the kids to hit them with too much at once.

So I choose to slow the train and ease on down the road.

The face I see in the mirror doesn't belong to who I was anymore. The guy I see there is someone I like most of the time, but there are moments where I tell him his idiocy is what led to all this.

Yet I agree that it also is the reason for the good stuff too. That is just how life goes.