July 29, 2009

Tisha B'Av 2009

This is the second consecutive erev Tisha B'Av that has been filled with tumult. Last year had its moments but 2009 is not interested in being outdone by the past so here I sit with spinning head. Fragments of the day are swirling throughout my skull and I find myself torn and frustrated.

I suppose that from an introspective standpoint that this is appropriate for the coming chag. In some respects it leads into a number of posts that I want to write but haven't had to time to hit yet. Sometime soon we'll have to talk about reinventing oneself and much more.

For the moment I'll be vague and say that today was one of those days where you realize that sometimes the mature thing requires you to swallow the bitter medicine. Today is a day where I am forced to swallow my pride and accept blame for things that I didn't do. I hate doing that, not that anyone likes it, but I especially dislike it.

You can call call it a character defect or an attribute, it really doesn't matter. All that matters is that I am going to do the right thing for the situation because it helps the family. One day I need to blog about the conversation I had with my son about these situations. One day I need to share the story about what happens when you are right but you have to say that you are wrong.

So continuing our vague and ambiguous description we'll meander along to the place where I repeat that in the end you have to be able to go to sleep feeling good about yourself. I may not be happy about the events of the day, but I will sleep like a baby because I did the right thing.

This is not the last battle or the final fight, just a prelude to things to come.

Now back to Tisha B'Av. I may blog more later, but for now here is a link to more of my past posts on the day. I wish an easy fast to those who are fasting.

3 comments:

Twenty Four At Heart said...

Sometimes taking responsibility is the wisest move regardless of your true accountability. Not always the easiest lesson to learn ...

rabbi neil fleischmann said...

have an meaningful/easy fast.
i liked this post - i liked that you tried to and succeeded in doing the right thing.

Jack said...

Sometimes taking responsibility is the wisest move regardless of your true accountability. Not always the easiest lesson to learn ..

Not an easy lesson, but one that I seem to keep having to repeat. Maybe I just haven't gotten it right yet. ;)

have an meaningful/easy fast.
i liked this post - i liked that you tried to and succeeded in doing the right thing.


Have a meaningful fast too. That is so very important. May you find answers in it.